The Shifting of Perspective

I'm questioning the perspective of my pain~~while so aware of the sounds surrounding me. The wind forcing the trees on the hill to speak . . . the cacophony of crows . . . the muted bellow of a train passing through the acres . . . chimes . . . fountain fall-out.

I have prayed (superstitiously): "God, I'm so thankful that I can see." (Because if I don't He may take away my eyesight.)

What kind of perspective is that?

And then the quick prayer in this moment . . . "God, I'm so thankful that I can hear." (Because if I don't He may take away my hearing.)

What kind of perspective is that?

I have many times, over many years, prayed: "Thank you God that I can walk."

Now I can't. Not like I want to. BUT I'm caught up in the blindsidedness of my perspective!

What happened to my heart that it sees and hears so obliquely? To borrow from C.S. Lewis, is it the problem of pain?

I've had pain. I maybe still have pain. I may again have pain. Satan does not tempt us just to make us do wrong things (including skewed hearing and seeing) but to cause us to lose what God has put into us, to lose what we really know deep in our 'good' hearts about our intimacy with our Father. He comes to shift our perspective from Truth.

So I must dive deep. Deep. Deeper still.

And when I rise to the surface, and draw in a new breath, there is a redemption. I know that I know that I know that Jesus loves me. That's His Perspective. A Sovereign Shift.